We can’t go back there
not for at least five years
not after what happened.
I should have known
after the last time
with the band-aids.
Aisles of things
you want
the way a lion
wants meat.
I thought I was safe,
just batteries.
A quick trip
in and out.
But then you saw
the alarm clocks
and your body
turned to fire.
At first I watch you
like I would if you
were an animal
and I was at the zoo
impressed by how red you get
and the way your crying
gets faster and faster
like your rage is running downhill.
But then I realize
that you are screaming
over and over
I want a big clock
only you can’t say your L’s
and I remember later
driving home
how it was me
everyone was staring at
wondering
I suppose
all sorts
of exciting things.