Another shooting in a school
and I am surprised
at how quickly I punch
my sadness out of the way
I want to yell something
that will make a difference
I want to scrunch his life
into a ball and start over
I want to punish the world
for keeping an eye
on gravity
and not us
they don’t need my rage
but I cannot get soft
enough to grieve
I hold my baby
tell her she is loved
and beg
that it be enough.