All the times I talked to you in a sing-song voice
a tinny kind of happy
while responding to emails
when I fell asleep
kneeling overtop of your little body
for who knows how long
except it was long enough
for my legs to go numb
the way I can’t seem to judge
the turn around the staircase
and knock your head
against the wall
when you wake up
I sometimes count the hours
until you will sleep
again
and I can’t seem to
get into
Lego.
It’s not really an apology
this catalog of blunders
nor a pitch for forgiveness
I just wanted you to know
little goose
that human beings are curious
that imperfect days
fit inside
a love so big
it feels like I swallowed
the sea.