You mistake happiness
for disposition
but it is harder
than that

it is the lightness
waiting underneath
the worry

it is what is earned when the sluggishness
is heaved off

it is maintenance
a daily practice
of small choices

open the curtains
floss
leave a big tip

you think happy people have no doubts
but they just barge onward
hoping the voices
can’t catch up

so fake it if you have to
jump up and down
for the roundness of the moon

put effort into it
sweat a little
for your soul

part your mouth
into a smile
though you feel
you might crack

and anyway

what makes you think
it is wrong
to be
so raw.

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